I feel great. I am in a secluded part of an extremely mainstream park. There are hundreds of people in my eyesight, yet they cannot see me. I feel like a spy. It is such a strange sensation. Even stranger, the sun is warming me up, a lot. My skinny black jeans are being heated my the warm sun. It feels so beautiful. I wish she was here. It would be better.
The beer I am drinking is so ratchet. It doesn't belong. It is ruining the purity of this moment. Maybe this beer is a good thing. Maybe my body needs the gluten. Who knows? It depends how I view the beer. I could view it as a demon, ruining my purity. Or I could view it as an important part of my "classic piece of shit" look. It's all about the attitude.
I am watching lots of cars go by. The sun is shining on me. I hope I don't get sunburn. Sunburn is bad. Cars are bad. This all reminds me of climate change. The climate is changing. Nothing is earthy any more. I sitting in the "woods" but it's not really the woods. There are several dozen 50 story sky scrapers surrounding me in every direction. This is not nature by any stretch. Our world has fucked so many people over. I want to be in nature.
Nature can mean so many different things.
nature (n.)- the phenomena of the physical world collectively, including plants, animals, the landscape, and other features and products of the earth, as opposed to humans or human creations.
nature (n.)- he physical force regarded as causing and regulating these phenomena.
nature (n.)- the basic or inherent features of something, especially when seen as characteristic of it.
nature (n.)- the innate or essential qualities or character of a person or animal.
Nature can mean anything I want it to mean. It's in my nature.
When I think about nature, my mind reminds me of that time I went on a walk with a girl. I stepped in dog dung. It was awful. I gave her my coat. Now that I am thinking about this girl I think about that time when all I could see was white. I think the white was fog. I hope it was. Maybe it was climate change. What does climate change look like? What does climate change feel like?
Her body is so warm. Her hair smells like a dream come true. Her body is so fragile and gentle. She is incredible. She makes me forget about climate change.